It Does Not Feel Right......!!!!!

“You do know what you are doing? Don’t you?” asked Neeti.
“Yes I do” answered Surili smiling, sitting beside her sister on bed.
“I really couldn’t understand. How can you be so calm about this?” Neeti’s tone was getting bit stronger now.
“And for God sake sister stop smiling. You do realize that right now your smile is freaking me out.” Neeti was so angry that Surili could actually see her sister’s face getting contorted.
Surili was amazed by the fact that her sister was so angry, who was otherwise always so calm and composed.
“Whoa sis, cool down, you sound as if I have murdered someone.” Surili was getting irritated now.
“Oh! So now you do not even realize the seriousness of the situation.” On hearing this Surili rolled her eyes. Neeti continued “Mom-Dad is sick worrying about you, your future.......” she stopped in between after looking at Surili’s furious expressions.
“Now don’t exaggerate and stop trying to make me feel guilty by the name of mom-dad because I am not going to compromise. This is my life after all.” Surili snapped.
Neeti took a deep breath and said “I know dear that it is your life and none is asking you to compromise.”
“Then mind your own damn business and stay the hell out of mine” words slipped out before Surili could mind her tongue.
She saw a tear floating in her sister’s eyes almost ready to spill out, regretting her action but like always it was too late instead of the promise she made to herself before coming to meet her sister that she would stay calm no matter what.
Both of them were silent for few minutes which seemed like years.
“I know that all of you and mom-dad love me and care for me, you want good for me. But all I am trying to say is that it’s not easy for me either.”
Neeti opened her mouth to say something but Surili continued, “I do realize the seriousness of the situation because it is my damn life we are talking about and yes of course, again I do know that I am thirty two years old.”
“But I cannot marry Abhay just because he’s a good friend of mine and asked me to marry him.”
“I thought you like Abhay” Neeti was still trying to figure out her sister’s reason to say no to Abhay.
“Yes of course I like Abhay, in fact I love him but just as a friend. I do not love him in that way.”
“Surili he has always been there for you; is from a very decent family, have a good stable job, mom-dad loves him and the most important thing is, the man loves you to the core. What else do you need?”
Surili didn’t know how to make her sister understand or her parents, her friends or even Abhay.
“Neeti could please for once stop looking at Abhay’s market value and his perspective and for once, just once, try and understand my perspective. Neeti I don’t love Abhay, I know that he loves me, will always love me and would do anything to make me happy. But don’t you think even he deserves the same love and care.”
“I would never be able to love him in the way he deserves; I never saw my life partner in him and know very well that would never be able to see.”
“But why dear, why not?” asked Neeti
“I don’t know , I really don’t. All I know is that I don’t love him and I cannot marry someone whom I don’t love. And please don’t give me that love will happen eventually crap.” answered Surili.
“Surili ............why?” asked Neeti feeling helpless and still trying to understand her sister.
“Because it doesn’t feel right” replied Surili, picking her bag and rushing out of the door.